Awalnya gara-gara Fauzi Baadila muncul di sitkom 'SSTI' then

gue : "Aku suka banget ma dia (fauzi baadila-), kayaknya cowok banget gitu".
suami : "If I was a gay, I'll 'like' him too, to be my boy friend".
gue : "Iya ngingetin aku sama mamas :)"

ternyata my hubby 'BT' inside, dia bilang "sometimes your words just hurting me, but I know you didn't meant to"

trus gue SMS mamas n bilang kalo my hubby marah cos......
mamas jawab :
hmm..i'll do d'same if i was him..better not do that lah..btw still remember me? how? (6:29:32PM, 11/14/2008)

gue :
Ha3x :-D unexplained,just like our past relation.n maybe better that way,n dont want to know way n how:-)gute nacht mas.C U(8:59:20PM, 11/14/2008)

two days later gue lanjut sms :
I just remember.find a song 'chasing car' by snow patrol.perhaps that's explaining something:-)(8:45:34AM, 11/16/2008)

Lg luar,genre-nya altrntv rock.gw ksh lirikna nech,cerna ya :-)we'll do it all,everythng,on our own--REFF: if I lay here,if I just lay here,would U lay with me n just forget dworld?--I dont quiet know,how 2say,how I feel--Those 3words,R said too much,they'r not enough-Back2Reff--CHRS: forget wht we'r told,b4 we get 2old,show me a gardn thats bursting in2 life--I need Ur grace,2 remind me,2 find my own-Back2Reff&CHRS--all that Iam,all that I ever was,is here in Ur perfct eyes,they R all I can see--I don know where,cnfused about how as well,just know that these things will never change 4 us at all--(9:45:20AM, 11/16/2008)

mamas :
haha..such a nice lyrics..is it represented what u feelin' now? (10:52:10AM, 11/16/2008)

gue :
Represent my feelin'?sometimes,whenever oldtimes memory just cross over my mind:-D just gogling 2 find the song.gaya nyanyinya mirip the calling.what r U doing right now?have a 'new friend' 2 take a nap?:-D (2:32:42PM, 11/16/2008)

mamas :
hmm..no time to do that or u still want it? it's still free til now..lol..,now just mke some lazy doin'@my apartment..sleepin' all day long.. :( (4:03:32PM, 11/16/2008)

gue :
:-Dif only I still single.well have a great moment in your lazy time:-)take care yach:-D(2:24:46PM, 11/16/2008)

and meledaklah marahnya, padahal menikahi dia bukan perkara mudah buat gue I have to collect all my resources, to make it happen. and perhaps I just miss all my old memory with some friends cos I am already losing it one by one

Baru nulis lagi nich, sempet niat mau nulis jum'at lalu. mau cerita soal GAGAL HAMIL, wuih BT berat gue, udah GR banget telat 1 minggu, gak taunya again....n again.... kayaknya gue blom dipercaya. Gila yach, bikin anak aja susah banget, kok ya kalo yang gak niat-niat malah pada 'tekdung', giliran gue yang niat abiez gak berhasil-berhasil juga. Tapi mungkin memang ALLAH SWT lebih tau yang terbaik buat gue, kayak jaman gue hunting husband aja (wakakakak....)

Cerita yang lain apa yach ????....cuma seputar anak-anak kampus binus yang pada rame, heboh. anak gundar yang semakin aneh n lemot (anak TI kelapa 2) yang lain .... apa yach...

o iya it's about my hubby, sometimes I feel really guilty, about my past but I have never meaned that way. making him feel disguised and jealous, but he ought to know, that he is differ from other. In the reality, it's really...really true that love is complicated, and marry much more complicated, so just keep try, and pray..